To be or not to be

At the risk sounding like a love sick puppy I will proceed to yell…I THINK I AM IN LIKE! Yes even the town slut does fall in like. For the last few days…and weeks it has been trips down memory lane to keep self pity at bay. My life has turned into one boring routine without excitement…work, home, work and home some more and then work again! It’s a tough existence I assure you! I have always admired women who are not afraid to fall in love. I was listening to my gal friend spill on her latest affair. She is deeply involved with a fat older man with an even fatter wallet and a wife. The question was whether being a mistress is such a bad thing. ‘In this day and age, if you want a good life, then being a mistress is the way to go’, she lamented. ‘I am not willing to forsake this life of luxury in the name of loving a poor man and being number one. As long he caters to my needs, I see no reason why I can’t be number 99’, she added indifferently. I used to frown upon women who had the audacity to even think about fleecing other women`s gologo. A bite was fine but the whole meal and regularly was a little too much! I know what you are thinking but I am not going to defend myself…but being a sex fiend doesn’t meaning I don’t harbor dreams of walking down the aisle! Sometimes when my good angel visits, I dream of a big white dress, beautiful cake and an equally handsome groom to compliment the whole picture but seriously…second wife! I cringe when I think of my significant other trapped in someone else`s nether regions. Which brings me to the story I am actually trying to tell; there is a man, he is rich, attractive and good company but he is involved with someone who is currently out of the country. I won’t deny I have stolen the occasional shagmate here and there but I didn’t keep them. Problem is that I want this one for myself. I am not willing to taste and let go. Untidy mess it is my people…but he is the one person who has makes me want the domestic feeling of being in a monogamous relationship. He makes want to care for him, do things for him and you know; just be his little gal. I think the universe is finally punishing me for my large appetite! So I ask anybody out there to help me with this one or I just might hang up my tools in the name of like. Otherwise until then…a little fun here and there surely won’t hurt.