My lessons started early

My introduction to sex came early in life. In fact I don’t even remember exactly when and how I lost my goat but from then on wards it has been a tumbling journey from one bed to another. For most times I didn’t even know I was having sex. It was like an out of body experience and I was watching some man do things to me as he panted like an animal. It was oddly disorienting as his breathe quickened and soon he came with a hoarse roar and collapsed on my chest! When it was done I would swear never to let a man near my pump um again but it happened…again. My real pleasurable experience with sex came much later when I had learned to convince myself that a man can actually look good naked. But before that I found the male anatomy very disgusting; a flat muscled bottom with a black dangly thing in between the limbs and spindly legs…yuck!

My earliest memory of carnal relationships was way back in nursery school. We were playing hide and seek and this one fellow called Derrick told me to go and hide with him in the near by bushes. ` Do you know how to play mummy and daddy’, he asked. `No’, I replied innocently. ` For me at home I usually play the shop keeper or the baby’, I continued. `That is okey, today I am going to show you how to play mummy and daddy’, he told me reassuringly. He told me to remove my panties so that we could play the game very well. With the innocence of childhood I took off my panties and let him have his way with me. To be honest I didn`t feel a thing until we got caught. The teacher took us to the front of the class and told everybody how we have been doing bad manners. It was so embarrassing I never wanted to play bad manners again. I cried so much and Derrick wasn’t any consolation either. He was sulking defiantly as if it was his right to play bad manners and the teacher had no reason to stop him.

This exposure to  shame soon began my obsession with the forbidden. From that day onwards I got spanked for playing bad manners until I was too old to get caught or spanked. The bad manners graduated to sex for love that eventually got stripped to its basic purpose…fanning the fires of lust. It has been discovery after discovery of why these pleasures are forbidden…